nothing more than nothing

2009-07-20T10:41:00.000+08:00

this should be my last post to this blog.

everything comes to an end. now this blog does. months ago i have come to it too, thought not entirely.

now, its the end (:

goodluck and goodbye

goodnight stranger (:

2009-07-14T00:32:00.001+08:00

argh i thought i can work at food fest before the uncertain APEC but now it seems uncertain too because of too much clashes of sch and work. i initially thought working from 17 to 23 july but then it seems like it crashes badly, with 3 days commited to sch. the food fest is not a day only but is actually a whole day thing and i dont want anything to crash with anything. i want more money. maybe this is when i shd get a proper job.

maybe i shd really consider so.

2009-07-11T22:01:00.004+08:00

i went beach road to look for a book but i couldnt find it at the 2nd hand shop at beach road. damn. then i walked all the way from beach road to bugis to look around, hoping to shop but dun have the mood to. went to the new bugis shopping center and i think its a fine place, with alot of space, and it provides almost everything u want in that area. movie, arcade, shops, restaurants etc. almost a you-name-it-i-got-it place.

just dont have my book

then i continued to bras basah and there i tried alot of shops even the most messy one. but still in vain. its a @!#$!^%*#(*& thing.

then i encounter fort canning and i tried to cut across from PS side to clarke quay side and although i believe i took quite little time, its an amazing feeling to cut across alone in that place of war. plus all my war story books, i have alot of feelings there, as if where is ideal for ambush or such. haha

then i walked to clarke quay and it started to rain.

#@!#^)%#!@$^) again

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i think im weak nowadays. my mind cannot stand much and it is quite easy for me to reach a piss off or break down stage. some thoughts can slowly just lingle into me and i will kick and punch to get it out of my brain. but it still continue stabbing somewhere and i cant figure where they attacked from.

im not strong enough. i need to be stronger. both physically and mentally

2009-07-09T23:24:00.000+08:00

work work. finally its coming to an end. and its kan shag i tell u.

#)!#@^)%$!##@!#^)%

2009-07-04T02:45:00.002+08:00

why is there a "Y" behind everything in my blogger? haha i certainly sucks at whatever script they call it. HTML? whatever. i cant use it for goodness sake and im trying to look for a nice yet simple one on blogskins but to no avail. not like i really care actually. haha

yesterday went uh, pub with ym, ots and prashana. it was fun. haha we will know why. only us. hoho

but all fun comes with a price. i felt like dying last night when i reach home. the beer limit is not sufficient to make me throw up neither is it comfortable for me to sleep. i felt myself going in and out of my sleep until 7+ am then i totally lost it, but only to 0940. then i force myself to sleep again. nx thing i know, its 4.

obviously i made no attempt to check my sch websites for any update and i went to school only to realise it got cancelled. @#!$%!@$!!! i wondered why lijia call my phone when he is inside the lecture and dont wanan reply. now then i realised it is because there is no lesson thats why he is free to talk! #@(*^&%$$@

im getting fat, and i dont like it. i must be determine to get some of the load off. maybe i should start running again. i need to be discipline in that. DECIDED!

running every 1,3,5. how long can i keep it up? haha

2009-06-25T02:42:00.000+08:00

wow im bloggin again and im still furious bout the past 2 entries being failed. the entry via psp had took me like, 15-20 mins for such an short article nonetheless its a brand new experience and once is enough. well at least i know how to connect to my own wireless using psp already. lol

went to terence mambo today and witness the 17th mambo jambo competition. its a pity his team only come in 3rd but the 1st two was really good, probably because each them got their own "shaker". i think terence could come up with something more innovative then just mambo as what ppl did. i had ideas to make it cooler maybe but too its its over.

GOD HOW AM I GOING TO WORK TMR?!

2009-06-24T01:40:00.000+08:00

a brand new style of blogging, with my psp! cos when i blog ytd i gt so fed up i quit. i acty blogged twice and both just disappear into thin air! argh

so now i will keep it short to prevent anymore wastage.

i actually gt a book i wanna recommend for all. it is conqueror genghis series by conn iggulden. its an excellent book and guys like me should just buy and read. but i have to sayy it first. there is currently 3 books already and he say he will have 3 more. 4th will not out till next yr so decide!

2009-06-20T02:50:00.000+08:00

hi. im feeling abit down today, or maybe recently. maybe this job isnt of my scope but this cant explain the errors made during simple tasks allocated. the errors had led to ppl joking bout it everyday over and over again. i just act like i didnt hear or i know they are joking but in fact, fact still hurts.

maybe leadership quality isnt really there all the time. it was due to wayang that caused the change of school, or whatever. or maybe that is the difference between SOM and a normal sword. SOMs are always more well liked by people, regardless who or what they do. he seems so interested in everything and he always mingle with the full time personnel. i didnt even really mingle with my fellow part timers and i think its rather tough to mingle with fulltimers. its even worse.

but work is actually ok. the guy who got us in says that if i want i can continue part time during july. im actuatlly thinking bout it cos i need money too. but im thinking i shd get 1 of the relevant field or at least SOME WHERE there, not this! im not a technician!

so as i HAVE not said, SIM will commence sch on the 1st of july, wed. then i will be back to a half student life and maybe half working life. i think its alright but i feel bored to even sit in the lecture room just like that day. i cant imagine days ahead but i have to do it and not let anyone down. ive got to work harder!

and my NBA 2k9, im so sad now cos my previous year champion team seems to have collapsed. the champ team last year even sees my star leaving me, moving on for better future. then i got some stars in, despite their old age in 2011. now, im left with almost nothing plus a bad season record. playoffs PLEASE

2009-06-17T01:07:00.001+08:00

its been really, long. i have started working but it will only last 2 months. its quite fun and tiring at the same time. being at changi so far end, we take 1.5 hrs journey on bus 5. u know how long it is? i can tell u. it is fucking long.

but then at least will get money. tmr going SIM for some talk which i am not interested but they say its compulsory so argh i have to go.

im so stuck to texas poker and im in deep debt trouble now. i was on a roll 2 days before and i win until 550k or more but now im left with 100+k cos of greed, and ultra bad luck. hand was always good but others were better.

argh. what luck am i having now?

BAD LUCK

2009-06-12T03:55:00.002+08:00

wow, i just finished all my prison break. that is in a span of 3 years too. although im not catching the series with the actual timing being screened in US but yes, own time own target. that includes watching season 3 and 4 in this 2 weeks, or maybe 1. the show was magnificent, though some parts not convincing. i cant believe such an american series will come to an end, just like lost or whatsoever. but i will recommend for ppl to watch this. its great!

so it comes to a conclusion, another too. well, so that be the case.

good bye :)

2009-06-09T02:50:00.002+08:00

i hate it i hate it!

why is it i am so super off form when i play basketball? or is it just my normal standard and my form didnt drop? i was just pure lousy from start.

gettin caught for travelling, poor shooting, wide open layup also miss. hais

sians. quit basketball la

2009-06-04T04:12:00.002+08:00

im having difficulties choosing which jersey to get. PLEASE HELP

the options are as per below:

44 bucks

28 bucks

21 bucks

29 bucks

all of it is on ebay. im thinking.. of buying 2. lol =X

i love the USA allan houston jersey. it looks hot. and portland, and minnesota college. ooo

so tempting. any one wanna sponsor?

2009-06-03T02:25:00.002+08:00

its been a day. so much thing happen since i woke up at 3pm. its been a long time since i slept till so late in the day. somehow i wish i didnt even wake up cos when i wake up its the worst time i ever wake up in this year

after the storm arrived and passed by, no one speaks. the house was all silent and all, its unbearable. honestly speaking, i have never expected something of that extend to happen. it didnt even flash pass my mind. im lost at words bout it

so that would make me, think more. i believe i would not end up that path, but still nothing is impossible. esp when we play basketball we know the ball is round, that applies for all balls. if its not round, even worse. try throwing a ground pass with a rugby ball

think think think, tired of thinking. go run run run. tired of running, came back home and im actually glad to see my bro at home cos im kinda worried and i didnt bring my phone out. oh well, so its an end already, for now

i wonder why have luck been away for so long. like since donkey years ago i have not been winning mahjong. so be it. and all the rest of the idiiot things like getting charged, assigned shit ass job in camp, blown up job for crocs that time, world most ex chalet, maybe so on and so forth.

what cant kill u makes u stronger. it applies for u and for me

2009-06-02T02:49:00.003+08:00

time flies so fast. its been week since i orded and now ty and ts going to enlist soon. only thing is ty will go in first cos he is weaker, ptp. but good for him, at least he isnt feeling that bad bout it

live happy and it will be over soon. 3 guards AEI! ok abit wrong but good luck

its been a long time since we have so many ppl playing ball today and we saw alot of stunning faces. choonhian, samuel, wenyang, and uncle. wow i haven seen them for like donkey years and they must be just realised from the finger mountain that trapped sun wu kong.

outstanding. no wonder it is so fun despite the fact i played like shit again. well i think everyday and everytime i play like shit. haha

but who cares as long as its fun?

2009-05-28T15:13:00.001+08:00

wa lao im so sad. i was playing my dynasty warriors just now when i failed to save the game. they sayed the game was corrupted. there goes my lvl 50 zhaoyun, my level 22 lu bu, and all my items and all.

fuck it man!

2009-05-27T22:12:00.002+08:00

yes im finally back from the chalet. some great 3 days 2 nights back with them again having fun all night, seeing ppl get drunk, become merlion and sleeping without bathing on 2 nights. its amazingly fun despite expenses shooting sky high.

so there it is the 2 nights. overall nice. and i came back after going singing with chris, sj and cb. the 10dollar club at chinatown. wow its 10 bucks, free flow drink + 1 bowl of "shark fin" each. not a bad bargain, in fact, real good.

and i came back, came online and get a shock of my life when i see cleveland losing orlando 3-1. im thinking cavs actually have a chance to be the playoff champion this year but wow orlando is just on a roll. i will certainly be up again tmr morning to join ym watching lakers game.

oh this playoffs is nice. im loving it.

i love this game

what bout u?

2009-05-24T11:09:00.002+08:00

yes i just receive letter from SIM i think on friday, saying i got into ACC in SIM. im thinking if its the right choice but since it has been made already just have to try to make it the right choice

so nx week some day i will go down to SIM to pay for the dunno whatever fees, and blah blah. 2 years course. school school. it will start in july. hmm i dunno when exactly.

im watching nba now and its oh so exciting.

im getting shoes and cap later and yay

2009-05-17T03:34:00.002+08:00

official day as civilian: 4

its the 4th day and it seems like its the 40th day. i cant do this anymore. anymore longer i feel that im going crazy. come lets see what happens today

2pm: reveille

3pm: lunch

315pm: psp

4pm: xbox

5pm: psp

630pm: dinner

645pm: psp

8pm: online/ psp/ book (10 mins?)

330am: blog

so between 8pm to 330am, yes im playing psp. and that sums up my day. im heavily sucked in dynasty warriors: strikeforce and im playing it all day all night. my character is now at the max level at 50 but yet there are still alot of quests too tough to fight alone. so with my bro and our newly recruited team member, his gf, we form our alliance and fight them, till our palm and finger hurts

thought of running at 10pm just now but mum ask me not too i was grrr at her. wanted to run on friday night but cancel cos sat by right got play basketball. now? no more run on fri night, no more basketball on sat morning, no more running on sat night. no i cant allow myself to eat, play and grow fat.

I NEED TO EXERCISE

but im thinking. maybe i should finish my book first, since its finishing. or maybe i should complete my game first, since im at the final few chapters. alot of game im stuck at the back. dynasty warriors, RE5. RE5 is another bastard

forums say the monster was so easy but i just dont understand how i can get him to die. he is so fat and hideous i hope i can kick him in the butt and shove his big fucking gun into his much and fire a thousand rounds into it.

and i got this book called monster by allan hall. it talks bout josef fritzel and his daughter being imprisoned for 24 years underground with 7 incest kids, 4 in the cellar. god u guys should really read this shit. its cool

"we need to talk bout kevin"

2009-05-14T06:35:00.008+08:00

happy ord, for its the official date i bring home my pink ic. its been long since i have seen it. not that i really miss that card so much but i miss the freedom i got with the card in my hand. tried to settle the outprocesses as soon as possible and it went quite smoothly actually. will certainly miss the place cos it just contains too much fun and laughter, pain and sweat in it.

oother than this, happy birthday kenny. 23 already this year and well u are all alone out there to start your own career already. its so coincidental that his ORD date is his birthday. its a double joyous day it means. initially wanted to go to timber to have drinks and chill cos chun boon dont wanna go club. but last min everyone wanted to go phuture cos the ppl ord-ing today are getting ppl to go. same for me as my BMT mates msg me to go and chill too.

so we went leaving chun boon behind. for me, it was one more

so we clubbed and we saw for the first time chris pick up girl. normally we go there rot and go home. in fact, i dont really love clubbing but i go because they asked me to. honestly man, that is no joke bout it. and when i see him pick up girl i start to think bout it. is that what guys come to do and what girls come to do too? are guys there to pick up girls and girls there to be pick up by guys? i dont really understand the logic of clubbing

all i know is it makes me tired, body ache, and unwell. maybe i shall quit it, though i didnt do that often. but yet often enough to make an impact

so now that i have ord, what should i do? am i really to rot and die at home? and wait for SIM's stupid letter? i have no plans for anything, thats right. and i still have no intention to plan for. i just know i have to work before i start my first sem( if i ever get into) . and i might have to work part time if i am to continue to graduate from SIM, cos i cant allow my parents to be bothered by my school fees and my allowance too.

life sucks. i shouldnt have ord.

2009-05-12T00:33:00.002+08:00

so.. what date is it? bingo its 12! da dang!

so im less than 24 hours away from my pink ic and im going to take it kiss it, rub it, hug it, and have the most intimacy actions i have with it. oh god!

no more bedok camp, no more phua chai kin, no more lesson plans, no more lessons to conduct. its freedom. i smell it. its so fresh, so green. ooooooh

terence, are u reading this? SUCKER!

so what have i got to do after ord? im thinking of getting tons of part time job to do. haha please! recommendation PLEASE!

2009-05-08T04:47:00.003+08:00

now i got it right. if i can change my duty from saturday to sunday that would be bestest. meaning i can stay in on sunday and wait till monday. then kenny they all will be back and we can go around signing clearance again. my list is almost done and that means im almost there too!

cpt michelle just msg me just now to ask if i know i am promoted and i said i wasnt really sure bout it though guanwen told me already. then she said that CO wil present the cert to me soon and actually i was thinking i shd say "actually nevermind la. dont promote me also ok de" but i didn of cos. haha too scaredy cat to do so but its ok. i have to find CO anyway because he told me to find him before i ORD. i intended to too cos i have to get his signature in order to clear the form.

and oh YES i must remember my ISAC card from joel. i need it for clearance too. what else? maybe point a middle finger in his face? the fucker who gave me the duty on weekend. if i can i get some transexual to cum on his face and fart in his nose.

lastly, i know how long is a cats life. teckseng just ran his bicycle over one and the cat just get up and ran off. im the only one who screamed

tick tick tick. closer and closer

2009-05-06T21:59:00.002+08:00

so let me ask u a question. how many days is left?

answer: 7!

1 exacct week to my ord date and yes im clearing off and woo im so happy. not going to camp tmr and day after. i had a duty scheduled for me this saturday and im thinking whether i should do or not. maybe ATT C is great. but its not nice cos ppl surely know i get fake status. i hope i can really fall sick but of all illness, please dont let it be fever cos it would be soo troublesome now

kind soul or evil devil. i cant decide yet. lets wait and see.

so finally im clearing some off. i dont care if s3 that phua chee bye say i fuck up or what cos i dont really care and what is most important is ORD. and that is the freedom he cant have. wa fucked up what he have done. i will spread around what i see so that ppl know he is a boohoo officer.

sucker!

my clock is still ticking.. tick tick tick

2009-05-02T00:16:00.002+08:00

so im left with 12 more days and oh im so happy. although im busy and do not have the ORD mood but i know its coming and im happy. im always angry but im happy now cos i think im only left with 8 working days.

as expected. though s3 sounds like he is good and merciful enough to return me my offs starting from last friday, he just claimed them back because he wanna check the work allocated to us. and the work allocated to us is because the OCs didnt do their job properly.

anyway they are back le so i am hoping he will allocate the tasks back to them but after thinking i know its fat hope. that piece of fat shit ought to die. he even did very illegal stuff in camp in broad day light. sometimes i just feel like borrowing cam from s2 branch, take photo and show rsm or co. die fucker die!

2009-04-26T13:11:00.002+08:00

yes im only left with 17 days left and i am still busy in camp! thank goodness im done with gcc and im not any syndicate commander cos if i am, i will havee to do report for all. lets see how busy i am this coming week

Duty on monday, going DB on tuesday, going court marshall on wed, have to submit my tasks on wed too. then left with thur to do clearance with ippt too and fri is labour day yay!

so good after that im left with 10 days once this busy week is over. supposed to be clearing off and that asshole say until its due to him being merciful thats why i can clear my off. i wanna tell him to fuck off and i hope he burn and die cos i really hate him. this fuck up bn owes me more than 10 offs and its only rightful of me to get what i deserved.

he is one of the worse leader i have seen. probably its due to his big tongue, or his ugly guards men hair cut or maybe its just him that i hate. talk like an ass, behave like a jerk and sometimes coward cos he want to cover his own backside. not like its nice i hope there are worms inside

dont bother i should be the merciful one. hope kenny manage to clinch the job for us so we can work for a few days after ord. shoes shoes shoes.

i wanna buy asics shoes, a new jeans and some new t shirts. i cant get enough of any

2009-04-19T10:58:00.002+08:00

wow i cant imagine how busy i am this week. so little had i gone home and plus yesterdays activation of the new gcc trainee till 5pm. i was working til i fell asleep in front of my com. thanks to the asshole that gave us the job. already done it yet he aint satisfied. want us to add more things within. brrr

luckily im left with 25 days if not i will be on papers. "young 2lt kill superior cos of work overload". lol i just cant stand him i cant talk to him for more than 1 min. everytime i talk to him my face goes black and actually i think he can tell but not like he care and not like i care too. screw u

next week going tekong with the trainees again. time to fuck them big time. wahahaha

2009-04-12T13:21:00.003+08:00

wa sad. emo le. after playing my nba for so long, now i cant run the new season that im bout to start. so sad. i had got shaq o neal lor! =(((((

but yay its left with 31 more days till the end. so its like bout 1 more month to it! oh so excited. that is including all the weekends and offs and leaves. it should be bout 20 working days left =D

but actually i hate the fact they post me to s3 branch cos they sthinks. just give ppl arrows and when they like it. esp the new s3 he is a @(#*()#&!@)&% i just hope he will blah blah blah. i have many offs to claim but i doubt he will give any. lets do a brief counting...

4 days leave ( applied but 2 will be gone) 2 days off

2 days leave (applied when doing ops) 2 days off

1 day off (for gcc 01/09) 1 day off

1 last min duty ( valentines day) 1 day off

came back on 4 days in dec (all half days) 2 days off

post wallaby, LEC SAS course (2 weeks) 10 days off

total 16 days off

im sure there are more but i cant remember. 1 x LEC SAS is good enough to pwn the stupid s3 if he ever bothers. IM NSF, HELLO? seriously speaking, its not that i dont want to work but is that i dont want to work under u, asshole

blah. whatever and i still feel like going overseas. i need companion! help! i wan go taiwan, bintan batam jb ubin sentosa and whichever nice places. but i wanna work too. so i will only have bout 2 weeks to have fun but looks like i cant get much fun cos no ppl wanna go anywhere with me. emo kid. but i was looking at papers and seems like quite abit of part time jobs now. the most i go changi village sell backside.

lol

2009-04-10T17:55:00.001+08:00

hi good friday. it was the best friday i can ever have because im in camp doing duty now. not like i care actually but its the 10th and YES i got my pay for this month and it will be 2nd last pay and im sooo loving it.

33 more days till the end of all. i just cant wait. what am i going to do? i feel like going overseas but i hardly have anyone who will go with me. is it because im unsociable or what? nvm then i shall go cycling everyday, basketball everyday and sleep too. no partner, no activity. so i need to have a life myself. back to secondary life with just sports and entertainment. how nice would it be

ORD LO! - my sole motivation

2009-04-05T17:57:00.002+08:00

went to charles hs this morning to have the reunion breakfast but i had to leave early so i ended up only seeing charles and passing zhixiong the umbrella. what happen nx i got no idea. but his rock band was funny and fun. haha didnt know terence was this good he hit 80+ percent for singing at expert level that i chosen. lol too bad i know no english rock song so i ended up playing the guitar.

and the popiah was amazing cos mine was just stuff with prawns, crabs, and eggs. no lettuce, no taogay, and nothing else. when i went off the rain was just wow.

and i just watch the shinjuku incident or something like that. unlike his normal style of movie, it doesnt have much fighting scenes but there are quite some gore parts. well, like nice la. so ya lor and im going back to camp cos i have costal swim tmr morning. brrr

taiwan trip from 25th may to 3 june? felt like they asked out of courtesy but i feel like going taiwan anyway. just cant think of ppl to get. think zh is gay cos he going taiwan backpack trip but i say i wanna join he say no.

maybe he is gay

and i am not

2009-04-05T02:53:00.002+08:00

! the digit starts with a 3 already! 39 more days till ord! oh my god its so near. grr cant it be faster? still too long. haha

tmr meeting with my pnrs at charles place for lunch. might be going to watch movie after that. i just cant imagine u give charles a set of the chef costume and asking him to put it on and then prepare the whatever breakfast lor. lol

met up with her today and watch the confession of shopaholic. well, ya lor like that. another show for bimbo. the dress sense is ultimate. so ultimate that if i see a singaporean wear like this i will outcast her, make fun of her and do all sort of nonsense. haha its just so brrr

walk the bridge then after. so many walks i had made there alone, the feeling is different with someone by your side. walk walk chill chill laugh laugh. then go back le. which part of the bridge is the nicest?

henderson waves? think is alexandra arch.

2009-04-03T19:13:00.002+08:00

went out with my A05 classmaates yesterday and had my ultra belated birthday celebrated then. ate newyork and my plate of hawaii teriyaki is outstanding. rest of the dinner is spent talking nonsense and joking around. then my present from them is a braun buffel wallet. well i thiink i will use my current one first before that. thanks anyway! cos my current one not bad too. erm ya =)

oh yes! im left with bout 40 more days to end of this and yet i went to cut my hair againn cos i cant stand the look of my hair being in the shape of mushroom. nothing comparable to terence ultra big mushroom in wallaby but it isnt small. so i shave the side of my hair back to no 1 again.

i swear this wil be the last time i cut hair till ORD. yay

life is good but it seems my phone is spoilt because it will be so quiet the entire day. it had been anyway for the past few weeks. oh well, what to do?

cpt seah talks to me whole day bout future, career, investment. i cant get it out of my head with the part he ask me to imagine how would my life be when im 30 and how would i want to improve it.

how would your life be when u are 30?

2009-04-01T19:06:00.000+08:00

oh YES! how long have i not booked out on a weekday? damn long. oh i feel good.

they asking me to mambo tonight. i think nah. clubbing is too tiring. i took ippt this morning and i missed gold by 1 sec, now silver. damn angry. but i shall retake again. the 200 is so near yet so far. i will catch u nx time.

just miss weekday night at home. oh its sooooooooooo good

2009-03-29T21:57:00.002+08:00

wow i just paid 15 dollar to almost kill myself. i went to a massage parlour and let the uncle man-handle me. i felt like dying soon. suddenly what cant kill me in tekong can kill me in the massage shop. but feels good after that despite the fact that my shoulders and back still ache. my lower back actually hurts alot leh.

so im back from tekong and i cant imagine how skinny i am now. i shrank lor. arms smaller, chest smaller but only good thing is stomach also smaller. i looked into the mirror, and i decided.

i should eat fatter again.

haha. the tekong ROP ( rites of passage) is damn tiring. i hate to admit that but i was shag like dog at the end of it. dont even have much strength to stand still at the parade already. log PT, stretcher, jerrry can, fast march, night navex, beach PT. dog

but at least its finished and i wear the dumb tag on my left shoulder. then tmr duty le. yay at least duty is slack. but sian.

time to whack nx gcc. haha

2009-03-22T10:34:00.002+08:00

i just love the look of my charlotte bobcats now. woo

C: M Okur (Utah Jazz)

PF: K Martin (Denver Nuggets)

SF: G Wallace (Charlotte Bobcats)

SG: R Bell (Charlotte Bobcats)
PG: DJ Augustin (Charlotte Bobcats)

SUB1: J R Smith (Denver Nuggets)

SUB2: D Gooden (Chicago Bulls)

SUB3: M Finley (San Antonio Spurs)

SUB4: R Turiaf (Golden State Warriors)

SUB5: W Green (Philadelphia 76ers)

SUB6: M Chalmers (Miami Heats)

SUB7: T Richardson (computer generated rookie)

RES1: K Cato

not the best yet but will trade for better. lol so exciting!

2009-03-21T22:11:00.002+08:00

this week is past so soon. all the times spent sleeping in bunk during gcc is magnificent. i have never imagined gcc like this. however good times will come to an end eventually. this coming week is the so called "ROP" week. Rites of Passsage. something like summex so yes, please expect like summex.

its the last week of gcc nx week already. how time flies. however, we did not managed to clear the swimming due to the poor planning by upper command, probably s3 branch too. i failed my 12km fast march on wed. was not feeling too well i guess thats why. i failed by 22secs which i blamed it for the 30sec i spent peeing behind SOC ground. haha.

so yes. end of army life is coming. 50+ days already i cant believe its so fast. cant imagine what i will do once i ord. lam nua all the way. i will let my hair grow like bushes then forest then i will cut. i miss my long hair and i cant wait to get it back

i spent a magnificent sat out doing nothing with ym. ate dinner, sat in arcade for bout 2 hrs before returning home. lol damn lame. spent 1/2 the time playing winning eleven in the arcade and the other half of the time watching ppl play tekken 6. still got my 1,500 word essay to write for my fuck sm. grr

and bad. im sick and im still sick. thanks to the pizza last sat, fish and chip, mac, and fish and chip again on sunday. conditions escalate and then i grew real ill soon after. cough, sore throat and fever. but boon peng is still boon peng. he will not report sick

there is only 1 thing in his mind, "ORD LO"!

2009-03-15T01:05:00.002+08:00

its been long. gcc week 2 is now over. life cant be much easier. this course had been so slack, with only 2 turnouts so far. i never heard of a gcc like this.

nx week would be busy. a entire series of things coming up:
10km fast march - morning
12km fast march trial test - morning
12km fast march test - morning
2km swimming pool swim - afternoon
2km coastal swim - afternnon
heli-live repel - afternoon
cliff repel - afternoon

so that is as good as 3 days being fully occupied nx month already. i can see its busy, and tiring. unexpected stuff had happened this week. like the warrant officer incident, then there is a small case of such scary thing in camp. scare all of us as he is sent to CGH immediately. luckily he is ok already.

just a big more. a busy nx week and a summex week then. then im left with 1 more month to ORD!

till then, i have to do my ultra long compre for bsm. grr

2009-03-08T09:10:00.002+08:00

i cant believe i have homework to do from GCC by BSM. its grrr cos i have no heart and soul to do it. i felt that its a complete waste of time.

one week had passed since i entered gcc. what do i have to expect of the coming week? a fieldcamp navex on tue to wed at tekong, and the rest of the time trying to clear the veto factors plus some lessons if i didnt remember wrongly. hope it wont be any tougher.

if only gcc is slack

anyway thats my weekend. no basketball, no going out only until last night when ym called me to ask me to watch a basketball match between tagawa and whye nam. it was interesting game and it make me realise how much i failed:

p sch:

- played more of soccer but ends up no where but only kicking pong pong around on the basketball court

- when wanted to join and learn basketball, was totally rejected by the coach because he said i was afraid of the ball when it was then bout the size of my head.

- managed to get a quite alright PSLE score

s sch:

- joined scouts and made it as the SPL of the unit, though a lousy one

- wanted to play basketball part time in sec 4 but was rejected. expected that because it was just too late

- totally flung my studies until o lvl when i did slightly better

poly:

- wanted to just try the basketball selection but certainly failed

- poly grade didnt get better than a grade of C, even failing earlier in year one resulting in a ultra low gpa

- only success i thought of was the shoe thing that i went into. that was pretty good

army:

- had a more than disappointing bmt time as a recruit, ended up in sispec while some ridiculously went to ocs

- made it over to ocs during stay in sispec and managed to commission as a 2lt, combat engineer

- went into unit and had lots of disciplinary issues with higher lvl, resulting in signing extras and getting charged over a lost key

- going through gcc now. status unknown

from thiss summary, i see more red than black. haha its just me la. slack is in my blood. i cant imagine life in SIM. will prolly die due to poor discipline and all. well thats for me to find out and for all to know.

2009-03-07T01:09:00.002+08:00

good day everyone. i just left camp at 10plus just now and im feeling excellent and outstanding and nothing else. lets recap my great birthday week

day 1: its just a gcc day one. more admin than anything. finally joined into them and do stuff with them. 2100 lights off? HA alright. thanks kenny for calling me and telling me the time to get prepared. though it doesnt help cos i immediately go back to sleep. like, i really dont care. lol

day 2: 0400. time for fun. not as tough as they said they did in their course. just some pt stuffs. though i keep lying it cant hurt me but yes, it hurts. my muscles sore and ache. beach pt was much of a joy. i kinda enjoy it. i like being mua chee, rolling around the sand after soaking in water. seriously. i think its fun. lol maybe its time for sentosa, once i ord!

day 3: basic knots and lashing lesson. due to my scouts background it prove not to be tough enough to trouble me. had fun doing and teaching others too. felt like back to good o days. fast march was hurting. my timing when i did under support was much faster. i almost struggled for a 71:15 to pass. passing time is 72min lo. 45 sec. had fast much wit the ultra load which includes:

3kg waterbag
6 dummy mag, 2 dummy grenade

but combat ration haven go in yet. bless me on the following march

day 4: repel. and birthday. so silently it slip past i keep humming "祝我生日快乐" to myself. time go past fast and im done with basic repelling. i can take on FBO and LBV le but was cancelled by the usual evening rain. disappointment

day 5: today. same, repelling and swimming too. 500m is no kick with life jacket i only feel the shag on my feet due to the fast march. its enough to kill already. so nice of them to let us book out at 1900 to turn us out back from the gate, which i somehow was prepared for. then go back blah blah. drag till 2200. guard mounting plus presence of bsm slows everything.

some believe that there will be another turnout so they left their bag upstairs. i think its ridiculous cos before we go they have to run back up to take. like some blody moron. i think some ppl of this gcc is not at all smart. hate the fact that they think they know so much and behave so disrespectful

whichever the case, shouldnt let such affect my weekends. its WEEKENDS already!

ENJOY!

2009-03-01T19:53:00.003+08:00

YES!

i spent my last year birthday in ex MUSANG back in ETI.

i will be spending my this year birthday in GCC in 3GUARDS.

yay!

to think back, since sec sch, all birthdays lie in the march 1 week holiday. in poly times, all birthday lie in the march term break.

OUTSTANDING

YAY

2009-03-01T16:51:00.002+08:00

i cant imagine. im only less than 18 hrs away from gcc, 48 hours away from turnouts and all. wow how fun can it get? i cant imagine.

im thinking. they can make it as physical as it can cos i believe i can be fit enough to take them. but those cb sure make it insane. i just feel that my combat fitness might not be able to take it cos i hate field pack. and to think that i have to do my 12k fast march is grrr.

nvm. not going out anywhere anyway. so can reast at home for now. will pack my bag soon. time to activate the cadet bag to bring back the cadet feelings.

time to turnout!

2009-02-28T19:12:00.002+08:00

im getting crazy. im swinging on my chinup bar like im swinging on a swing. im bouncing on my bed like its spring. im eating so fast i finish my dinner in 2 mins.

is this what gcc will do to me? but i have yet to take anything out of it yet

what will become of me next week?

2009-02-28T14:26:00.003+08:00

i just saw a pink colour, used condom downstairs on the grass patch beside the road

2009-02-26T20:00:00.002+08:00

im glad i changed blog add and many ppl dont know. i dont really know the reason for my blog but maybe it just serve as a companion to me. when i feel bad, angry, sad, disappointed, happy or what-so-ever, i will blog it up. i think at least it help me to open up slightly.

so thats it. GCC starts next week. i feel like im going to be back in cadet days again. just that i wanna put a 4-white-bar cadet rank which can nv be found anywhere because im simply like an officer getting whack like a cadet and it stops at 3 white strip. so i wanted a 4 white bar so that it can give me power. the black bar sucks my power again.

so on this fine day, after the new commanders come into picture, the GCC intro begins. thank goodness im not really involved today because we have been orientated already. but poor yc have to go through with them like men. however i know that i will kana appointment so its not a blessing actually.

i cant blog bout anything else except thing cos nothing have been happening to me. absolutely nothing.

sometimes i feel lonely. i feel like talking to anyone but no one is there. i feel like sitting there and stone but no one is stoning with me. thats why i go home. going home is a cover up of my loneliness.

i miss that feeling

2009-02-25T12:49:00.002+08:00

fuck. its being confirmed that i have to go GCC.

its totally fuck up cos they had stalled me for so long and then eventually tell me NOW that i have to convert with them. its bullshit cos i dont give a damn bout that damn tab. its worth not more than a toilet entry to me.

its bullshit really. now i have to prepare my fieldpack and all already. its being left accumulating dust already and now its going to be used again. fuck up cant i be excused? cmon someone break my leg during basketball this weekend so i can escape this meaningless shit.

i cant believe or think how does this help to make me a improved person. esp by the looks of andrew yeo i seriously dont think so.

FUCK! FUCK! FUCK!

im spending my birthday in camp getting whack and my weekend being confined too!

if its a must to go through, i hope it is shorter. or at least make me feel that there is a purpose of it.

make me forget everything

2009-02-22T20:13:00.002+08:00

PIGEON

its outstanding how this feeling got into me. i felt like a pigeon being released from a cage recently. got the ability to fly but got no where to fly. like a pigeon kana put away and waiting for nothing. outstanding.

i just did a one stone kill 2 bird so no one exactly know what im talking. one might know but not the other. this is lame.

yay i just spend 3 hrs playing basketball at an unknown place. in the end, i just went home after that. so this is my weekend already. sat, playing ball. sun, playing ball. both kana ps. its so identical

i think my patience will increase. i wonder why i cant dribble past ppl. must i really go by speed for my dribbling will certainly fail me? basketball is so basket

and then, GCC will befall on me soon i think. i hate to admit so i choose not to admit. even if this dont fall, dozens of duties will. this month i have been given a magnificent amount of 4 duties, including a sat this month. lets see next year. imagine i go GCC, and then i still have to do duties on weekend. i cant imagine.

i just cant think of life as a dog again, though its dog enough

2009-02-18T21:33:00.002+08:00

yay so i change a blog add. at least i dont feel stupid with it. though this blog add cant be much smarter. i also decided again to remove the tag board cos i think its rather useless and i dont think im interested to see the comments of anyone.

simply cos i broke my bag yesterday when i was back in NEE SOON camp thus i put that. going back for PKE, i saw quite alot of my old mates. fat and skinny. i realised im not the only one being out of shape. haha juisern is much worse. he felt like a bloated pig. i heard kyle seet had evolved into cow shit already. fat like a lump of it. but yes i miss the sessions i have with them. cadet days were the best with all friends

then i continue venturing around with a broke bag. carried it all the way in my arms and im happily treating it as a form of exercise to strengthen my arm muscles. i guess it helps cos my bag is REALLY HEAVY thats how my bag managed to snap twice on me. grr

thought of getting one bag while roaming vivo but i did not. i just went to city chain to remove parts of the ORD watch. talking bout the watch, i think the extra 2o i paid is almost as good as throwing away le. nabeh

and YES! im on duty again. i hope i get more next month so i can avoid GCC and at the mean time accumulate more points so that they dont touch me in april to may so that i can have a happy ORD.

OH THAT SOUND FAST

2009-02-16T03:10:00.002+08:00

im starting to think. whats the purpose of having into a relationship at this age?

companionship?

true love?

or what it may be? someone needs to enlighten me bout this.

i still cant seems to find the reason to it, or how should it be to end it. simply put, how easy is it to love and how easy is it to let go? chim. chim topic.

so, valentines day became a normal saturday, then to a DO day. what more can i expect of the future weekends to come?

i need new training program for my daily life, personal life especially. i cant think of anything to slot in anymore. for instance:

SAT
morning - basketball
afternoon - xbox 360
evening - sleep

what kinda training schedule is this? fuck up lol

i have been not reading my brisingr. i think the book is lookin older than it should be already. damn that shit cost me 30 bucks. i should double up and hasten the progress.

meanwhile, i cant wait for the mem card to come so i can start off my left 4 dead, nba 2k9, fifa 09, battlefield bad company, and call of duty. grr when will they come?

how easy would it be to remain as friends after it end. will there be efforts coming in to show that?

and everytime i talk bout relationship i reminded of bebe that asshole. i hope he get his ass banged by some gay fuck along desker road. ever since he got together with yumei he had met us for less than 10 times last year, and NONE so far. u ought to die. really.

and, nvm. thats it. should i change a blog add?

2009-02-15T10:52:00.000+08:00

hi. thanks to ex DYS1, LTA CLARENCE LIM that i did duty yesterday, a last min activation.

fucker he is. cb he is. i fucking hope he burn in hell

though i had no more valentine anymore, i stil rather stay at home play the new games that finally arrived. and yes im playing left 4 dead and it seems fun. very kancheong game. and along with devil may cry, fifa and battlefield.

my weekends will be filled again!

2009-02-09T20:39:00.002+08:00

lets walk out of this. walk, walking, walked.

i went to register for school today at SIM. forgotten so many things i ran back home twice. first is the original copy second is IC. how can i forget that?

what have been on my mind to forget things? have been preoccupied with some unknown forces. maybe eragon and his dragon is forcing themselves into my brain. haha for im reading the book everyday.

after registering, i went to NP to play basketball. saw danny's bro and join in. aint that close with them so it was fun for them as i am like a clown, filled with dumb errors. balls hit my own feet so many times i can never remember. it was fun eventually though i cant score, cant assist, cant shoot, steal or whatsoever. felt so dumb.

after playing, sat there for 1/2 hr staring at blanks. i suddenly miss school. maybe the reason is that there is nothing left to occupy my life, so i enjoy staring. after that i went to buy drink. sit there at the "bar top" style counter for another 1/2 hr. as i was leaving i walk past the canteen and saw some one who look like i know. so i saw laikaiyi sitting there, my sec sch friend. thats the only person i know in NP that i saw.

after which went home. and blah. tomorrow doing duty. its ok. im actually even thinking of doing duty this sat, for its a day of empty schedule for me but a packed one for others.

but im not that sacrificial.

2009-02-07T23:13:00.003+08:00

hi its me again. im so bored and im so depressed. so many things that can easily do so, with a flick of finger

tomorrow the bn going to have ord parade. then another half will ord nx week, somewhen. then left only the ptps attached out to bravo for the 1 month, leaving us with almost nothing to do. whichever, the case, the possibility of GCC just make me wanna puke. i have done almost half of 3core as per ex CO le, now wanna cheat me. nbcb

nice songs, slow songs, sad songs keep repeating on mp3. nice shirts, nice jackets, nice presents, cards and letters all of u or from u. magnificent stack of them when i pack my cupboard just now.

outstanding. what can i say

2009-02-05T23:45:00.002+08:00

hi, so its a day, without somebody.

felt like askiing hows lunch, or hows your day. but kept it within myself

should have went to sing song instead of movie that day. should have. many of those words

so the bn ord this sunday. good. leave for the cv life as its supposed much better

army can drive one crazy and im stepping into it soon.

just bought brisingr. could not resist it at all. 30 bucks gone just for it

confirmed what i read online that there will be a book 4. damn

more money will be wasted as more "blood" shed in the book

2009-02-04T19:35:00.002+08:00

so, this is today. wow and its it for my duty deployed there. finally come to an end. actually i rather hope i dont leave the place cos i really dont wanna go back to camp. that place make me sick, mentally and physically. thought of gcc even worse

but thank goodness they going to ord soon. a mass of them ord this weekend and another half will ord nx week. then next friday is the ord function, the one that gave me ultimate shit. but once its done it should be over already.

so much for a new year. things happened here and there, there and here. whenn things change, i think there must be another change for that.

anyway, i just finish my "eragon" and "eldest". wow its great and i feel like buying "brisingr" and continue now since its all up in my brain now. all the fights. im loving the book. sad to say the movie was piece of shit and i bet it will be as good as LOTR if directed and planned properly.

so should i get it?

so should i do it too?

2009-02-02T01:14:00.002+08:00

so time flies so fast. my bn going to ord soon. in just less than 2 weeks time it will be cut down to bout half of them left. then after another month, left with a pathetic 5% and i will be inside getting arrows. but nevermind! cos if that time comes, it means my time is coming too

went to my uncle house and i land my hands on nintendo wii again. i still gotta say the same thing. the graphics sucks. but it still have some compliments from me. think its great if you want to bond your family or likes to host party at your house. it can surely be made to full use for such purposes.

act so much. bout kfc and mac in the end no one wanna eat. soooooooooooo....

i ate

and when i went to buy those at tiong bahru, i was wondering why everything is sold in pairs. eventually before i go home, i realised.

valentines day is coming again

2009-01-29T00:22:00.002+08:00

happy new year!

new year, new resolution? so what am i gonna get this year? hmm lets see...

pink ic instead of my green one
desktop
"zeng" the new xbox 360!
no GCC

actually nothing more of material items. haha im such a simple guy. self praise = no praise

had the most peaceful 除夕 and 初一 ever in my life because im doing duty. relaxed, simple tasks that a moron can do except my clerk cos he clearly dont understand english after coming singapore for only a short period of time from china.

i can almost boil my maggi on my head

i feel a break contact with everyone. many friends that no maintenance efforts are put into. sec sch? no. poly? not much. NS? nah, unless those in my unit now.

so they gonna ord soon, and lose more friends. but then, months later, ORD LO

2009-01-20T23:22:00.002+08:00

im so glad i finally voice out my unhappiness to that asshole. he initially wanted me to go back during my off day to settle the same old shit again. i can tell u i already know what are the things he wanna say and want me to do. i need something fresh in order for me to visit him.

thanks to my sudden pissoff thats why i got my off untouched on friday. i will be celebrating new year eves eve at home cos new year eve im deployed yay. and im not exactly bothered bout it cos i have been prepared mentally for that already. so peace, and chill

yes i cant wait for u guys to ORD. please be fast, and please forget me for GCC, unless 3 core which i completed 1 already.

2009-01-17T01:41:00.003+08:00

hello all. i just received information from my boss that i will be deployed for duties on chinese new year. though i kinda already know that before hand but it certainly have its way to turn my mood upside down like an upset stomach.

thats when i cycled down to tiong bahru plaza to get kfc for the family just before it closes. got a meal so nice that i can use it to stand in for 团圆饭. some body gotta do it and it have to be me but i seriously dont mind.

however, my mood did turn around. stoning, angry for nothing. today is an angry day though i had no reason to. went beach road and bugis with my brother ate tons of food but it was great.

let my duty begin before i kill myself out of boredom

2009-01-10T23:54:00.002+08:00

hi. i just felt like blogging. cos i feel like im doing shit again.

this ord thing is driving me crazy. making me the treasurer is asshole chore. collecting from those incamps are tough already. even those that ord before the function is worse. the year 1 commanders and men who had ord already. some simply dont care. after calling 40 plus last 2 weeks, many didnt respond and now 10+ have paid already. however, only 9 told me their name and all. i had no idea who are the rest who had transfered. this is seriously getting irritating and getting out of hand. i am getting pissed cos of that.

sickening.

and charlotte just keep losing. i feel that they shouldnt have trade richardson for diaw and bell. now we know. bell and diaw is good in pheonix cos they are in pheonix. they just cant leave the place. they aint star enough

there is just so much in the head it feel like its exploding. i dont wanna go back camp and wanna go cycling, balling and strolling around everywhere with nothing in the brain.

i miss civilian life =(

2008-12-30T20:14:00.002+08:00

ok my leaves or offs are coming to a close now. so how many days did i go back? 4 half days, adding up to 2 days. can i claim OIL? most probably not. well thats my life and i hate to say but i had given up trying to create my life. my life? wait for ORD, 5 more months. just bear with it.

went singing with my engineer friends. not alot of ppl but havent seen them for ages and we chatted like mad. my throat is gone cos of the late night supper at mac yesterday plus my initial sorethroat/cough. so it worsen so much that i go off tune every now and then. after just 2 or 3 hours and im a goner

so 2008 is coming. new year, new wishes. i wish

- this crap bn ORDS right away so i have less trouble and more peace

- ord function money comes in fast and smooth without any errors/ hiccups so i dont have to fork out my own money to cover for the deficit

- more chillout sessions with ETI friends so we can keep in touch even after we commission. yes to rank, no to friend dont apply to me

- and many more. secrets. shh

2008-12-26T16:10:00.002+08:00

u are miracly fuck up. just how many times must u call me back? dont u know that im on leave? stop saying whatever crap that u have to do that to, cos u are smart enough to sign on.

IM NOTHING BUT AN NSF! wake up your idea. stop being an ass

2008-12-24T01:03:00.002+08:00

randomisation

part 1: charges

now thinking back, seemingly wallaby seems to be much more peaceful and problem-less. coming back from wallaby, im back to the pathetic state i was before going australia. facing all extremes, even being charged earlier today

"2lt pang, you have been charged for ******** according to act ***.

2lt pang, you have been charged for ******** according to act ***."

this line was repeated twice! cos i was charged for 2 separate events. details, please spare me. i will go bonkers saying it again and again. the punishment is, 300 bucks for each offence. i have to pay 600!

other than that, my SDO is actually not my CO but my BDE comd! so crazy. cats start barking and dogs start meowing. bull shit.

part 2: basketball

i realised something, watching, playing, and liking are not link. no doubt they can be linked but at the start state, no there is no linkage at all.

i love basketball. but when i play earlier in the night, i felt like im like income tax, a 20% liability to the company. i keep giving away ball, missing wide open ball, doing all sort of nonsense. just what the hack is happening? why cant i play properly, seriously? at the end of the day it just voice down to the inner self beneath the skin. the guy behind the skkin cant make it.

part 3: ORD

back to work again. being automatically put in as a treasurer is a bullshit chore for me. im going back to camp every morning to work as though i had never apply leave and cant take any break. these guys are out to kill me. i cant survive, not meant to.

so many issues to settle, at least i settled 60%. still got 2 side i cant settle. one totally ignoring me today and the other cant meet me to sort it out today. im so helpless, stuck nowhere. stupid assistant is not of any help sometime i wish i ask her to FOAD (if any of my irc friends still remember this famous line).

this is bullshit

part 4: xmas

at least xmas is coming. wish u guys all happy xmas, while i know mine is fucked, screwed, and whatever term u may use, please use. jus say it out at the tagger man. fuck up

presents! yay! but im not exactly the present-y guy cos i haven been receiving much present even for my birthday too. so seriously, its the last thing that will probably thrill me. alright, i take back my words. i will love u deep deep if u gimme lots of money, best if can cover the 600 fucking bucks. screw this xmas.

men and commanders, go ahead and ORD

leave me back and rot to death. (chao kan @$!P$&*&$!@#&*&*$)^$$()!&@$8^)

conclusion

im wondering if i should blame my luck. or maybe since the start i shouldnt have crossed over already. just pushing your luck uh? now its time to pay. u are fucking goner asshole.

PANG BOON PENG U FUCKER!

2008-12-09T00:18:00.002+08:00

the marathon result is out!

damn i did damn badly thanks to the god damn stomachache that just wont stop haunting me. it hurts so badly i keep walking and even terence overtake me. lol opps i dont mean sacarsm. haha. even teckseng commented after looking at my time. haha jialat

still thinking bout participating in others. this is regret man. should take full marathon since it cost only slightly more PLUS u get the shirt. idiot lo.

sian. now its back to stay in days already. i dont really wanna go back camp to have this kinda life.

SIAN LA

2008-12-03T23:52:00.002+08:00

so, hi people. whats up with you guys?

LEC SAS course is all bout finish. a super book out course. if only im posted to 2PDF i will be so happy cos its gonna be more accessible to my house than my current camp. i love west side, definitely more than east. haha. and tomorrow is our POP! POP LO! throw beret/ jungle hat/ jockey cap or whatsoever. finish LO!

after which i will take a lift to go collect my racepack for the half marathon standard chartered. im wondering if i really can do it. im like so fat now, 72 KG for 170CM?! my stomach is obstructing the way already! its big, fat, and bulging. GOD!

so blah blah blah, blah blah blah

i actually cant wait to run. cos everyday after i come back from camp i feel like running but i will tend to bath first and after which i will be too laazy to run.

grr

i dont care la

I JUST NEED TO SLIM DOWN!

2008-11-17T12:47:00.012+08:00

so im back from australia for quite awhile already. haven been in any mood to blog but now since i have absolutely nothing to do so i shall do so.

nvm let me talk bout these few days first. my parents went to thailand for some dunno what thing. haha tour? im not sure too. but i think they coming back today. so these few days is me, cindy and vincent at home. god its boring and my life is laptop, psp, and music, and her. only yesterday and today i didnt meet her. so basically these 2 days is jus psp-ing.

the kiddy kiddy drum game is so fun and hard at the same time. hands not fast enough. er, maybe just my fingers. omg

so talk bout australia training. every overseas training is a new experience for me. from brunei to thailand and to australia, training ground just get less and less facilities. extraordinary.

the toilet is outstanding. the bathroom is extravagant. the latrine is marvellous. all of them are open concept.

ok so we had our "exams" in australia. ppl call it exam in school but they call it atec in army. so well, my platoon didnt fare well in these exam. execution phase is relatively good but my planning is the one that is bad. so it pulled down the overall grade of my platoon. whichever the case, its over and we are all glad cos whats left ahead of them is just a few months more before the ORD and go back to the heartwarming civilian world.

so we had fun, we had sun, we had rain, we had forest fire, we had alot of fun things going on. so

actually its quite fun. at least i had fun.

ok i think talk less. let me post lotsa pics. wooo

2008-10-18T11:22:00.002+08:00

i never felt so reluctant bout overseas training before. maybe its because, its not part of requirement anymore. or maybe its just, because of you

i just dont wanna get out of bed, dont wanna go anywhere. if i get sick and can dont go, i hope i fall sick. shit. haven got such feelings for long long time.

long, long time

2008-10-17T23:46:00.002+08:00

ok so its coming already. damn life as civilian is just so short. im feeling like its back to old school days again. sleeping late, waking up even later. life cant be better

for the past week, i have totally revert back to who i am. no more acting of being good, no more restriction. no more people to give me extra or give me any work to do. im just me. enjoy helping my mum taking care of kids, going out and have a stroll with her and so on. life seriously cant be better

it just make me wanna.. ORD

and back to the fact. im leaving tomorrow for cresendo. its just, boring. i just dont wanna go. its stupid, redundant and whatever. 3 weeks. just 3 weeks.

i cant wait to be back. happy ultra early birthday

2008-10-07T23:04:00.002+08:00

k so today we had out "amazing 24"

its amazing, its fun. no doubt its a nice idea and i really like it. however, i dont like the fact that there are people with integrity issue. we came in last. but at least we had integrity in the game and we kinda enjoyed it. rather than taking bus or what, we walked throughout, in the rain. thats what u call integrity. thats what u call pride

other than that, im going to sign extra again and im going to celebrate cos im going to be top scorer already. ha. i think pioneers are really quite fuck up esp the commanders cos we are always getting into trouble with the law. or are the laws out to catch us at fault?

2008-09-13T01:37:00.002+08:00

12km fast march. 2 km swim. heli live task. 12 km walk.

what am i doing all this for? i dont see a point in many things. how am i recognised? what am i recognised for?

recognised for burning mosquito coil? spoiling trailer? being a noisy crap in office? for sleeping with my specs? or for the poor presentation of orders and lack of staff aids?

what am i good at? command? or control? lets not talk bout NS for this shit. so many things i cant do well.

can i really play basketball? or do i only know how to talk? how many things do i really know?

fuck. fuck. fuck. fuck. fuck. FUCK

2008-08-29T23:52:00.002+08:00

shit man. what kinda life am i exactly having now? im so pissed with the life im having with. sometimes i just shit there and feel like fucking every single fuck shit i can find.

i cant do this anymore. its not what i expect. why am i the only person whom didnt get what i want man. didnt i make it clear i wanna get a slack job after the D-day?

and damn cant even apply leave after wallaby? god 3 weeks of leave + off for every one else except me and some other unfortunates. how could this happen to me?

i grew to become really grumpy recently. starts nagging and nagging. and i cant remember things. and i cant listen although i am awake. if not, i would be asleep.

2 whole days of listening to 3 fellows stand outside talking among themselves. wow. how nice.

im feeling screwed. i need to get a meaning to my life. whats my life about? how can i maximise it so i wont feel like this?

2008-08-09T01:44:00.002+08:00

IE to say, its going to be the end of the NDP period. which means that thats the end of the relax time with a rather long weekend. well what more we can expect? lets just enjoy the show tomorrow.

i bought luozhixiang concert dvd earlier today. i watched the disc 1 and it is rather nice, although not as splendid as leehom's concert. the part bout his family is rather touching. my bro's gf watched and i think she cried. its how touching it is.

ya so, 4NTM is going to come. my field pack is not yet pack. grr think have to pack it this week already, bo bian. irritated. those ppl fail cct have to go for retest and me being the cct POC and in charge, have to be there during the conduct of lessons, thus burning 2 of my OILs. idiiot. suck thumb. grrr

i dunno what to think bout the coming weeks. going to get shag, dirty and everything. tekong, centaur and seahawk. then wallaby. ok la. fuck it. let the horse come

2008-07-21T01:22:00.002+08:00

OFFICERS CREED

i am an officer of the Singapore Armed Forces
my duty is to lead, to excel and to overcome
i lead my men by example
i answer for their training, morale and discipline

i must excel in everything i do
i serve with pride, honour and intergrity

i will overcome adversity with courage, fortitude and determination
i dedicate my life to Singapore

SPECIALIST CREED

i am a specialist of the Singapore Armed Forces
with pride i lead
i excel in my field, ensure the discipline of my men and their mission readiness
i will overcome adversity with my fighting spirit
i will defend Singapore with my life

so, both specialist and officers are classed under commanders. specialists are once called NCO, which means non commissioned officers. so what separate them now? so both of us have to think like commanders. we cant think like we are men. so ever ponder what will happen if u start to behave like one? prolly just because u have been force to hang out with them too much?

disappointing. time to reflect on our own selves.

2008-07-13T10:29:00.001+08:00

PROMOTION:

2 DAYs 1 NIGHT AT AMA KENG
FOOD AND LODGING INCLUDED
GUARANTEED TO BE PACK WITH ACTIONS!
WHILE STOCK LAST!

Going outfield with my men already. its so fast. my first fieldcamp in 3 guards. how i hope i can exempt myself from helmet and sbo and camo cream. but as a standard commander, i think i have to get my face with camo and helmet on like an ordinary soldier.

i was on duty last night. i watch band of brothers. almost like chiong but not exactly. watched 6 disc already and its really nice. alot of facts that happen in war, that we can almost never rehearse. a real arti bombardment right above head, bullets shooting your pals, stuff like that.

i like the show. and now i have to start thinking like the commanders.

2008-07-07T15:00:00.002+08:00

so as i read the book "the game" (by 2LT leonard back then OCT), i felt weird. initially they showed the greatness of such but till the end it reflects the bad of it. friends to foes. colleagues to foes. working partners to foes.

life is going to be like that. like in my camp, there are already fellow colleague that i dont like. cmon i've been there for like only a month and i start to not like people. not very handsome of me but that guy is not handsome at all. irritating, worst of all he look like a geek. no doubt there are nice people there but i still prefer the days back in ETI. although we get whacked so often, we enjoy each others company cos at the end of the day, we can bring the misery to laughter in our own bunks, floaded with 6-8 guys.

so that i link to friends, as in friends from the past. the primary school friends are planning a meeting. not like im really interested to see them but i thought it would be nice if i jus show up and make my presence there. but you see, the bonds are there no more already. so its jus wayang, like my everyday in life, in work. so anyway ya. what is left is prolly bebe, yumei(cos she is with bebe now), ty, maybe ts. the rest are actually all in the past already

so moving on to another stage of my life- secondary school. thats worst. im hanging no where cos all i mix with is either scouts or basketball. my classmates, none. i meet none of them after i left secondary school and i dont feel that i miss them or miss any of those secondary school days. even if there is it would be for my scouts or the basketball sessions we used to have and enjoy back in school. so anyway i meet none except yongming cos we play basketball last time( like months ago). occassionally see him knock off work.

poly. so poly is fun and i have to admit it. but right now i feel that i dont belong there anymore. so long have i not seen them. they asked me to share a birthday present and i tell them im sharing. so most prob im jus gonna bank transfer for them to buy the stuff and not turn up. jus a bit of effort displayed that would be sufficient. RIGHT?

there are still many more people im too lazy to type out. basketball friends that are long gone. my tekong days werent good too i guess im too isolated. so none of these are enjoyable thats why i miss sispec, eti.

when are the sispec trio meeting? when are all the eti ppl meeting?

2008-06-29T23:32:00.002+08:00

randomisation:

god i watched it already. it cost me quite abit of money la. i wonder what will happen when the bill comes. anyway its damn cool. i like it. its quite worth the money lo.

after that went her aunty house celebrate her blah blah birthdayS and pop im home.

later waking hopefully i can wake up at 230 am to watch the final. catched nothing but hope for the final

and tml morning must be in camp to understudy BDO. my duty is on 12 july and i hope it wasnt me. i also hope it will not take long.

ANYWAY

2008-06-28T23:36:00.002+08:00

ha. random random. how long have i not blogged?

1 Of____r

Now im in 3guards. life in unit is so different from life in school. apparently its more slack than that but with the rank upon ur shoulder/arm, things changes. life as an officer could be good, could be bad. tons of office work to be done everyday. arrows flying everyday. and now, im even going to start doing BDO. shit man.

2 Nat____l day

so im involved in that. not like what ppl think. im not in the contingent neither am i doing big things for the event. my pl only is involved in bringing the aunty in and out. lol seems easy but running into boulders and mountains. the manufacturers, the aunties, blah blah. damn. its taking up lotsa our time.

3 B___ & B________

i wonder how would it be. but its quite costly la. i think it seems nice. i dunno. we shall see lor.

2008-06-17T23:04:00.002+08:00

hi. im home.

random:
i reported to camp today. god i dont like the feeling. i did ICCT today with the men. i feel that their discipline is unbearable. anyway i think i have to get used to it. and all the arrows that fly around in the office. what goes around comes around. and damn im tired due to the ICCT. and lucky my men were JC kids. when they ORD, its bout time for me too. HIAK HIAK. march and may isnt too far off

random 2:
i miss u. if only i can meet u often. miss all the old times with u.

2008-06-07T09:34:00.003+08:00

digimon post:

haha! my digimon died and they gimme an egg. so i restarted, and it become champion in 1 day. so i feed it with "aqua orb" and "evo 5" and I HAVE A BASTARD! a watery - snakey fellow which that "jogress" or had sex with RLJ digimon and POP! i have my MEGA ULTIMATE digimon! GOLDRAGOMON!

ok la doesnt look very handsome

army post:

got my sword yesterday during ACPC. its a total crap and it waste my time but since its over, so be it. shall stop complaining bout things that are over already. so anyway "due to the alcohol in the body, we book out in the morning after breakfast", and here i am back home again, enjoying myself. haha

suzhefeng told us our posting already. im posted to 3guards as pioneer PC, i think. so, the guards conversion course begins in august after NDP as guards are the GOH for NDP this year. so ya, meanwhile can relax first but i guess will be activated for alot of fatigue work during this time. sian.

comms parade on 14june. they say no tix no entry. i dunno man. i feel like getting MORE ppl. ha make things more happening ma. mmm, should i try?

2008-06-01T12:08:00.002+08:00

random 1:

oh man. an old trend is back with a new hit. digimon is hitting on EOCC! and damn! almost a good 20 can sum up the amount of digimon sold that day! thanks for the nights off that can be nothing sweeter than this. lol. my digimon is in champion stage now and.. wait a minute.. its called "allomon". lol its a simple flipphone design that can battle all generation of digimon. man im proud of myself. HAIL DIGIMON

random 2:

nba playoffs is coming to an end. i have always been checking when i book out. now the final is between LA and Boston. 2 excellent teams matching up against one another. how i wish i could watch them. balls gonna fly and ppl gonna get hard. its gonna get physical. its to see how kobe, gasol, radmanovic, odom match with KG, allen and pierce. its gonna be exciting. im gonna download the games and watch. COWABUNGA!

episode 2nd last

so, its the 2nd week of the joint term. so commissioning parade is next week. 14 june. excited? i dunno. this week is ACPC and we are gonna sit in there for hours jus for everyone to go onto the stage and receive the sword and dunno wat else. the whole 69/07 OCC will be out there getting it, one by one. that makes it bout 562 cadets? thats a whole lot of 12 contingents! whichever the case, congrats to everyone! we made it through.

so posting will be made known for sure this week. i cant wait for it

2008-05-23T23:08:00.002+08:00

so, we are back in OCS. just 3 more weeks and we will be commissioned officers. finally, i have done it. its not easy but i wont say its real tough too. many things had happened along the way but we, FE had learn to suck thumb and accept them. fuck the specialization personnel who keep thinking they are trying to protect us. fuck those FE who thinks that its too tough. fuck those ppl who despise us.

we, pl 2 were given tip on where we will end up at. so yup, i know my landing zone already. will let the latest confirmed news be here.

we went back to OCS today, had our new bunks and stuffs like that. tml im going back to NSCC to support those ppl who didnt manage to clear SOC. actually its not like im really interested in supporting them. im jus going cos my good pals are going. thats all.

peace

NOTE: i did not create the logistics vs engineer stuff. misunderstanding and misinterpretation pulled me in. but like i care. fuck u ppl

HELL YEA!

2008-04-20T01:12:00.002+08:00

im glad man. its just a few days away from cresendo and once its done, it wil be done with. but meanwhile there is something worthy of being afraid of - the PRB. in case of ppl who got absolute no idea what the fuck is PRB, its the performance review board. judging by the name i think most of u craps should know what the fuck is this crap all bout. its bout the CO and OC thinking that u are incapable of delivering like a PC thus sending u to see and drink coffee with CO to see if u are still interested in this long journey.

please dont put me in PRB

enough of army, im becoming so "into" it. i want a life. i cant wait for ORD. i wanna go back to study but i got no idea what i should study. i personally think that im interested in F&B, working in hotel or restaurant etc but i got no idea man. im considering accounting too. and when im talking bout accounting, im taking into consideration both SIM and ACCA. god i wonder if i can still cope with accounting shit now

2008-03-05T11:57:00.002+08:00

hoho happy birthday to me!

few pointers to highlight:
- thanks to the mid course gathering so that i dont have to celebrate my birthday in camp. 21 lo!
- thanks to those that wish me happy bday esp U =)
- cos of mas selamat, ex musang had been postponed to a further date. erm, contradicting, thanks?
- i strike 4d for the first time in my life. 5321! 05/03/87, 21 year old

what more? a super long weekend till sunday. IM LOVING IT!

2008-02-23T12:22:00.002+08:00

whao i just saw my laptop lying amongst a lots of magazine and newspaper. open it up, had a look at the amount of dust collected. its godly. i still haven settle the internet issue it has. it havent been used for months already. just so busy bout everything now. life cant get more busy. so much of weekends have been threatened weekly. sometimes feel so sick and tired of it. but anyway since i got my full weekend this week i will certainly make full use of it.

just came back from minefield camp yesterday. damn its certainly tiring. my sector being the slowest did all the way till the morning then didn sleep. thank goodness we didnt loss anything if not we will be back later. lets see, 2 more ex in 2 weeks and they will be back. sweet

2008-02-06T16:24:00.000+08:00

wao been so busy everyweek when book out

assignments, test to study and many more. irritating

i sometimes think im alright with the place but sometimes i jus hate it so. grrr

new year break lo. HAPPY NEW YEAR!.

ang bao, ang bao and MORE ANG BAO!

2008-01-20T13:14:00.000+08:00

booked OUT! so glad that i did. time in there seems to pass so slowly. everyday was quite miserable. surprisingly we got more time to slack and study on our own compared to the past. perhaps the main aand only reason is because this is the first week and the instructors are busy doing some administrative stuffs and cant be bothered with us. till then we will get it all. 1 x jialat jialat

field pack has been standardised already. soon enough we will all prepare for the engineers worst nightmare. the 7min turnout. god bless me for everything that is ok PLEASE

no extras for me please. so many had been issued and its only week 1 of it all. im starting to feel better already, no more complains or what sort but i jus hope the extra things would end. it seems never ending and ppl had already sign 6, 7 and even 10. god. orh mi tuo fo

2008-01-13T12:05:00.000+08:00

jus a quick one

came back from brunei already. aint that shag cos its jus a pure navigation exercise. i definitely wont be as shag as gary's team who went to top of biang. lol thats godly

other than that, im booking in soon. damn signal book in on monday morning while we have to book in by 7pm. but i understand that there is no point in comparing cos at the end of the day i will be the one being unhappy. so so be it.

went k yesterday with golf platoon 1 personel. only some though. she tagged along too. fun =)

ok i have to go prepare to book in again. its irritatingly lots of things to bring zz

2008-01-01T00:32:00.001+08:00

happy new year to all. hows your 2007? fun? joyful? unforgetable? or is it just an ordinary year to u? no matter what, leave it behind. if its bad, look back and move forward. if its good, look back, smile, and try to make it again.

i think my 2007 was rather fine. got its up and down. i wont say the down but the up is certainly the crossover from sispec to OCS. its the best i ever get this year. and all the events. social nights, gatherings, countless dates i had with her which was so fun, zoo and such.

2008 resolution:

- commission with pride
- sword of merit
- be a more tolerant person
- be less spendthrift
- able to plan more and hone up on leadership
- be closer and better to her
- spend more time and memories with family
- full commitment and effort in all

so how much will i achieve? probably i will do a look back session at the end of 2008, which is way so long. lol

whatever the case, im leaving singapore tomorrow morning at 2am. wil be going for an overseas training exercise in brunei for 10 days. till then, we shall see when we see again

-chill man, chill

2007-12-30T00:50:00.000+08:00

hi people. im posting to combat engineer. on 31 i have to go down to combat engineer camp to settle stuff already. darn its damn early. 7am and we must all reach. its new year eve man. all my friends in there supposed to be half day only. furthermore, we cannot be late at all. cos the guy let the words out already. late and sign 7 extra. its so WOW la.

heard and research so much about combat engineer. its said to be tough and fierce. 7 min turnout in full battle order. sucks man. i lack so many things for a standby field pack. for example, a running shoe. lol i spend almost every single credit i was given and now i got no spare to buy extra shoe.

lacking so much thing. or i jus feel that i lack so much thing. never mind la. and on 1st jan before 2359 i must reach changi airport. im flying! brunei! some trip to brunei. purely for navex. blah blah. will tell more when i get to learn more bout it. till then

SEE YA

2007-12-22T16:07:00.000+08:00

its the 22 already. 2 day of block leave pass liao. have to book in on christmas night. then the day after is our finale 23 km route march. then i will get posting le. hopefully dont stay in infantry

finally holidays. yesterday went to sentosa with ocs ppl. we played basketball while the rest went running. they so on la. one big gang of bout 10 guys go running around sentosa, zai. then we played soccer, play water awhile, then i come home already. and wa i got a terrible sunburn. i already applied the lotion on my body before i go into the sun but still , it is of not much help =(

the burn level is so high i cant take it and go online to look for ways and methods of relieving sunburn. so its said that aloe vera jelly can help. its presribed and described behind like this:

"Effective relief from:
Sunburn, minor cuts and burns, bites, chaffing, cold sores, rash and skin irritations."

sounds good huh? whatever it is, i will try to apply it 3 times a day to speed up the recovery process. anyway after sentosa went to tabi house for a lil gathering and xmas celebration. john send me home after which. jus some time chilling together.

chill, chilling, chilled

2007-12-17T00:46:00.000+08:00

hey yo im back to blog man. its been weeks since i last blog. the last entry was when i jus got the posting that im going to OCS right? now im going to get posting again soon

life in infantry isnt exactly the life i love. although there is something i like bout it, JCC aka jungle confidence course. alot of cool stuff and things gonna happen there. i didnt go through that yet of course, its jus some feedbacks i get from my sergeants and friends. cool stuff. staying in jungle, catching lizard and stuffs. lol

anyway, posting gonna be out next week or next next. then service term will soon begin. i cant wait for service term. now i know why i want to be out of infantry. im getting bored bout infantry life. its always identical though i cant master them all yet. but its only a matter of time. i need something new and refreshing to get me kicking and going agian. i hope im posted to signals or perhaps combat engineer. CBRE FOOYO!!

jus help out with the commissioning parade yesterday. whao. i can feel their joy and everything. its amazing. soon, it would be us standing there. jus 6 more months to go. i had already gone through 5 months of army life, whats 6 more? its still the same kinda life, life as a student, jus being more regimented. and all the confinements scares me. its like.. free?

however, the commissioning parade is able to gimme a slight lift of morale and motivation. feeling motivated, although im already motivated. lol

whatever man. long break is coming and my lappy is still as good as dead. fuck

2007-12-02T00:06:00.000+08:00

hoho! cross over lo!

today went over to OCS as a cadet for the first time of my life, and my only first time as a cadet. im having lots of mixed feelings after i reach there. suddenly i miss the cozy bunk where we scream and yell at one another, play around, sleeping around. god, i suddenly wanna go back to BSLC. darn

anyway, im going to golf wing. it seems real tough there. the pace of living is differnt from the pace back there in sispec. its like heaven and hell. such good life, to such fast life. think i will take awhile to adapt to it. i hope i jus dont stay in golf for infantry course, which most likely will be the case. darn! i jus cant think anymore. the people there seems so stress, the officers seems to be giving them stress, and the fellow cadets are giving me stress. fuck.

fire trench, shell scrape, defense. god.

time to start thinking. its freaking me out. darn

2007-11-25T01:38:00.000+08:00

one of my biggest day since my enlistment is coming. i can feel it. the anxiety, the fear. it had possessed such strong power of devouring my courage ( although it could be a lil only). BUT still, my balls shrunk like i never had them. (whao)

i cant tell what. hiak hiak. its a secret. for ppl whom already know, SHHHH! its an entirely big secret. i cant tell till i get it done with

im anxious. starting to read up more information with regards to the questionaire. so much to learn, so little time. fuck

whatever the case, 1 more week to pop. CORPORAL LO! ASLC jus passed out this friday. sergeants liao lo. yea they are all so happy and so are we. these bunch of section mate rocks man. i dunno where i will be posted to and im scared. i dont wanna go ASLC. i dont wanna go back TEKONG!

AHHHH!

2007-11-18T11:15:00.000+08:00

its been ages since i last blog. 2 weeks ago yea?

this 2 weeks. things have gone much slacker already. alot of admin time now and then. but there is alot of physical la.

after the CBRE thing, i started thinking. should i give a shot at CBRE or jus admit life and go ASLC. i saw how the delta personnel do everyday. everyday seems to be outfield. life seems like a poo man. it sucks there

blah. whatever. did SOC twice. one is spectacular one is fuck up. the first one i did my timing is 9.07 min. its nice. however the 2nd attempt is disappointing. i was unable to clear the low rope. i was so close, SO CLOSE. like fuck like that. cb.

then did IPPT test. i got a gold!

pull up- 10
sit up- 48
broad jump- 234
shuttle run- 9.9
2.4km- 9.17

i think quite good at running. lol

anyway, yesterday i went for CBRE round 2. only left with 70+ ppl already. i didnt manage to complete the course as i didnt manage to clear the last obstacle. its bout doing a puzzle. the bomb suit is so heavy and the visor fogged up like there is a 1000 smoke grenade. but im pretty glad i didnt give up.

i think my body is tired but i got SOC test on wed. i hope i got to the right rope with friction and clear it once and for all.

nothing but disappointment

2007-11-04T11:16:00.000+08:00

argh. my eye is hurting so much. i think that my right eye is swollen. somehow. which how did i make it swollen i dont know. all i know now is that it hurts alot and especially this morning. i woke up with mucus there and i cant get it off because my eye lid hurts simply too much. i couldnt rub my eye like how i normally would and i cant do anything bout it. neither do i know what to do bout it too. all i can do now is to rest it as much and try not hit it again.

did someone hit me ?

well, its all over now. all the fucking field camps. no more field camps will come in my way. field outing and training wouldnt be an issue as they doesnt require me to stay anymore. the things that we execute at field camps, im starting to know them good. caught 2 spiders on my side. my friends, they got some scorpions. whatever the cases, this field camp is fast over with campfires on 2 nights. oh i miss that feeling

this coming week will be short. we will be booking out on a wednesday thanks to depavali. then thursday book in, friday book out. fast week i guess. nothing else but physical. and will spend 1 and 1/2 day on chemical defense too. hmm

i went for the recruitment tests for CBRE defense force. Chemical, Biological, Radioactive, Explosion ( if i didnt remember wrong) . i dont mind going there after i pass out from BSLC, that is provided i can make it there. if i go there, life might be better. no more field camps, SOC and others, its nothing but urban. but the training is heard to be tough. anyway the recruitment test last for 3 hours! 7 tests to do. IQ test, maze test, and the blah blah tests. but no worries despite coming back on a sat to do, its over!

happy 20th birthday to u my dear. i hope u had fun. zoo and stuff =)

2007-10-21T11:07:00.001+08:00

sup dudes im back. i booked out yesterday

this week was a fucking shag week.
starting off with field camp, till thursday.
then sat is exercise gypsy where we ho lan and end up at holland
plus a fucking fever to add to my fatigue
i almost felt like dying and quiting.

argh

guess what? tml gypsy 2
the fever had not gone off and im still weak.
very weak
my joints are aching in pain and the temperature will rise suddenly
darn
i have to book in tonight and sleep with double blanket
to see if i can sweat all out and release the fever
if not, i will report sick on the monday morning

i think my brain is burnt and spoiled
help!

2007-10-13T19:40:00.000+08:00

back again. every week bloggin once and i wonder if it had been read a single once too. but who cares? i jus like to talk to mr blogger.

this coming weeks will be nothing but field camp. week 4 is nx week, going outfield. week 5 outfield again, and week 6 is our final grand slam. grand slam means that we will be evaluated upon our behaviour and attitude. i think time will fly fast these weeks. but next week im booking out on a sat. its fucked up. argh

this week i wore 1 uniform for 1 week =X. last week too. super dirty and nuar. lol. but who cares? i jus dont wanna bring so many uniform home. so much test. navigation test, training safety test, and blah and blah. so mentally shagged. and this coming monday im shooting matador! for those who dont know, its one light anti-tank weapon. whoooo

i wonder how much is the pay now. soon i will open another account, a posb account for some of my savings. so i can have both atm card - posb and uob. then i can diversify and try not to touch uob. it will be like back up fund. lol.

jus bought lee hom album at bugis. water goods. lol. i listening through now. i dont think its very nice from now like that. still haven find a nice song yet. maybe cos im not paying attention to the songs.

ahhh. shopping is fun.

2007-10-07T00:24:00.000+08:00

today im home again. booked out at 12 sharp almost. argh. i tried hard to battle z monster everyday during lecture

"when u sleep, u lost to Z-monster"

well, dumb dumb army term. lol this week is tiring. alot of physical. field camp coming up soon in week 4,5 and 6. its going to be tiring. aafter all this then come all the IPPT test and SOC test.

FYI, I GOT GOLD FOR IPPT CATEGORIZATION TEST! 2.4 timing is 2nd in platoon, 10 pull ups, 55 sit up, broad jump only 239 and shutter run 9.7 i think. not bad. i like =D

this week is extremely tiring, extremely hot. i am so lethargic this week that i didnt change any clothing except underwears. LOL 1 set of uniform, 1 set of pt and admin. 1 socks for both. lol stinko. finish my deodorant jus like this. HAHA

tiring seh. book out eat le reach home and soon after sleep. till quite late. pig eh

personally, some issues to touch on. responsibility. i realise why i didn and cant go OCS. thats why. responsibility, especially self one. till then, i dont think i have anything to complain

OCS? i dont think i can

2007-09-30T11:16:00.000+08:00

today is 30th september. firstly, happy anniversary baby =)
im gonna meet her later before i book in later.
book in timing is 2200. so i think its better than in tekong
cos must meet at 7pm like that =(

so, life in sispec isnt that bad
in a sense its pretty relax, at least for now
but its pretty bad cos im in plt 4 so i stay on 5th level
everyday i wake up i see the OCS tower
and bebe jus told me bout his turn out,
turnin my night into a bad one.
but oh well, what to do?

my plt is pretty small, consisting of 37 ppl only initially
then, 7 OOT/OOC, so left with 30
pretty little, how long can we last before we have to close down?
so out of these 30, there are quite some mild obese or obese ppl
our mission there change to "helping them pass"
oh well, as a plt, what to do?

did some physical training at SISPEC in the first week
CPT, SOC, endurance run etc etc
i think monday is going to be IPPT catergorization test.
i hope to do well and try to get a gold at the end of the day
gold is important, i can use it to help in my final hope

i still hope to cross. though, i kinda given up

2007-09-23T23:11:00.000+08:00

argh. sispec for what?
i wanted OCS
FUCK I WANNA GO OCS

whhy is it like this?
those ppl who goes to sispec are not those that will work hard
not all la but it seems like alot is those ppl that writes "wanna go command school"
but yet on the other hand they didnt work hard to go command sch
so what do u call this?

its not fair. ARGH!
F U C K

I WANNA CROSS OVER FROM OCS!

2007-09-22T17:01:00.000+08:00

wow. i heard to cross over from sispec to OCS
is gonna be top 3%.
god its tough.
that means 100 ppl only 3 go OCS from there
fuck man.

why did i screw up my days in tekong?
i dont think i screw it up.
what did i screw?
i still cant tell.
FUCK

cross over.
work hard work hard. ARGH
that is my one last chance to go OCS.
do it or die

"if u had one shot, or one opportunity to seize everything u ever wanted, in a moment. would u capture it or just let it slip?

2007-09-21T10:59:00.000+08:00

fuck, im going to sispec.
i wanna go ocs so badly
why did i sia?
must be cos of gpa.

im actually getting myself prepared for this already
but somehow i cant get myself to believe that
i dunno how to tell my mum and dad
its disappointing, really

the expectations of them, myself, and friends
its been thrown all away
fucked up
how?
i wanna disappear from the world.
i feel like going on awol.

FUCK. I DONT WANNA GO SPEC.

2007-09-15T04:42:00.000+08:00

im home. went to club for the first time of my life.
i think i jus wasted my money and time
oh well.

clubbing isnt fun
maybe i aint feeling high enough
maybe we are all not high enough
i think so
so its kinda boring
but whao, i nv know transexual go club
and go to trance section. LOL
i also saw 1 guy being grind by 2 girl
WOW

o anyway i ran into elmo they all too
so i spend awhile longer with them before taking bus home
feeling so tired
a good night sleep is nothing but neccessary

lastly, a video.

ZULU WAR CRY

pioneer batch of zulu coy. legancy shall live and never be forgotten

2007-09-12T23:54:00.000+08:00

POP lo!
finally liao. its time to pass out
it felt so fast.
i thought that we are starting to have more fun but its coming to an end
but an end to this chapter will mark the beginning of another
so jus hope for the better

today its so much fun.
yesterday too
so much photo taking, ppl disturbing and so
its so much fun and joy
will miss those people

they went zouk for party tonight
im a lil too shag to go and thus rejected
of cos, there are more reasons to come and only the reason knows the reason
complicated?
no, not if u are the reason
lol

this 10+ day break
i wonder what will i do
k box? lunch? meetups?
whatever it is,
i know that it will go by fast
i thought i should make a proper use of it
but im tired to think now

so ciaos.