nothing more than nothing

this should be my last post to this blog.

everything comes to an end. now this blog does. months ago i have come to it too, thought not entirely.

now, its the end (:

goodluck and goodbye

goodnight stranger (:

argh i thought i can work at food fest before the uncertain APEC but now it seems uncertain too because of too much clashes of sch and work. i initially thought working from 17 to 23 july but then it seems like it crashes badly, with 3 days commited to sch. the food fest is not a day only but is actually a whole day thing and i dont want anything to crash with anything. i want more money. maybe this is when i shd get a proper job.

maybe i shd really consider so.

i went beach road to look for a book but i couldnt find it at the 2nd hand shop at beach road. damn. then i walked all the way from beach road to bugis to look around, hoping to shop but dun have the mood to. went to the new bugis shopping center and i think its a fine place, with alot of space, and it provides almost everything u want in that area. movie, arcade, shops, restaurants etc. almost a you-name-it-i-got-it place.

just dont have my book

then i continued to bras basah and there i tried alot of shops even the most messy one. but still in vain. its a @!#$!^%*#(*& thing.

then i encounter fort canning and i tried to cut across from PS side to clarke quay side and although i believe i took quite little time, its an amazing feeling to cut across alone in that place of war. plus all my war story books, i have alot of feelings there, as if where is ideal for ambush or such. haha

then i walked to clarke quay and it started to rain.

#@!#^)%#!@$^) again


i think im weak nowadays. my mind cannot stand much and it is quite easy for me to reach a piss off or break down stage. some thoughts can slowly just lingle into me and i will kick and punch to get it out of my brain. but it still continue stabbing somewhere and i cant figure where they attacked from.

im not strong enough. i need to be stronger. both physically and mentally

work work. finally its coming to an end. and its kan shag i tell u.

#)!#@^)%$!##@!#^)%

why is there a "Y" behind everything in my blogger? haha i certainly sucks at whatever script they call it. HTML? whatever. i cant use it for goodness sake and im trying to look for a nice yet simple one on blogskins but to no avail. not like i really care actually. haha

wow im bloggin again and im still furious bout the past 2 entries being failed. the entry via psp had took me like, 15-20 mins for such an short article nonetheless its a brand new experience and once is enough. well at least i know how to connect to my own wireless using psp already. lol

went to terence mambo today and witness the 17th mambo jambo competition. its a pity his team only come in 3rd but the 1st two was really good, probably because each them got their own "shaker". i think terence could come up with something more innovative then just mambo as what ppl did. i had ideas to make it cooler maybe but too its its over.

GOD HOW AM I GOING TO WORK TMR?!

a brand new style of blogging, with my psp! cos when i blog ytd i gt so fed up i quit. i acty blogged twice and both just disappear into thin air! argh

so now i will keep it short to prevent anymore wastage.

i actually gt a book i wanna recommend for all. it is conqueror genghis series by conn iggulden. its an excellent book and guys like me should just buy and read. but i have to sayy it first. there is currently 3 books already and he say he will have 3 more. 4th will not out till next yr so decide!

hi. im feeling abit down today, or maybe recently. maybe this job isnt of my scope but this cant explain the errors made during simple tasks allocated. the errors had led to ppl joking bout it everyday over and over again. i just act like i didnt hear or i know they are joking but in fact, fact still hurts.

maybe leadership quality isnt really there all the time. it was due to wayang that caused the change of school, or whatever. or maybe that is the difference between SOM and a normal sword. SOMs are always more well liked by people, regardless who or what they do. he seems so interested in everything and he always mingle with the full time personnel. i didnt even really mingle with my fellow part timers and i think its rather tough to mingle with fulltimers. its even worse.

but work is actually ok. the guy who got us in says that if i want i can continue part time during july. im actuatlly thinking bout it cos i need money too. but im thinking i shd get 1 of the relevant field or at least SOME WHERE there, not this! im not a technician!

so as i HAVE not said, SIM will commence sch on the 1st of july, wed. then i will be back to a half student life and maybe half working life. i think its alright but i feel bored to even sit in the lecture room just like that day. i cant imagine days ahead but i have to do it and not let anyone down. ive got to work harder!

and my NBA 2k9, im so sad now cos my previous year champion team seems to have collapsed. the champ team last year even sees my star leaving me, moving on for better future. then i got some stars in, despite their old age in 2011. now, im left with almost nothing plus a bad season record. playoffs PLEASE

its been really, long. i have started working but it will only last 2 months. its quite fun and tiring at the same time. being at changi so far end, we take 1.5 hrs journey on bus 5. u know how long it is? i can tell u. it is fucking long.

but then at least will get money. tmr going SIM for some talk which i am not interested but they say its compulsory so argh i have to go.

im so stuck to texas poker and im in deep debt trouble now. i was on a roll 2 days before and i win until 550k or more but now im left with 100+k cos of greed, and ultra bad luck. hand was always good but others were better.

argh. what luck am i having now?

BAD LUCK

wow, i just finished all my prison break. that is in a span of 3 years too. although im not catching the series with the actual timing being screened in US but yes, own time own target. that includes watching season 3 and 4 in this 2 weeks, or maybe 1. the show was magnificent, though some parts not convincing. i cant believe such an american series will come to an end, just like lost or whatsoever. but i will recommend for ppl to watch this. its great!

so it comes to a conclusion, another too. well, so that be the case.

good bye :)

i hate it i hate it!

why is it i am so super off form when i play basketball? or is it just my normal standard and my form didnt drop? i was just pure lousy from start.

gettin caught for travelling, poor shooting, wide open layup also miss. hais

sians. quit basketball la

im having difficulties choosing which jersey to get. PLEASE HELP

its been a day. so much thing happen since i woke up at 3pm. its been a long time since i slept till so late in the day. somehow i wish i didnt even wake up cos when i wake up its the worst time i ever wake up in this year

after the storm arrived and passed by, no one speaks. the house was all silent and all, its unbearable. honestly speaking, i have never expected something of that extend to happen. it didnt even flash pass my mind. im lost at words bout it

so that would make me, think more. i believe i would not end up that path, but still nothing is impossible. esp when we play basketball we know the ball is round, that applies for all balls. if its not round, even worse. try throwing a ground pass with a rugby ball

think think think, tired of thinking. go run run run. tired of running, came back home and im actually glad to see my bro at home cos im kinda worried and i didnt bring my phone out. oh well, so its an end already, for now

i wonder why have luck been away for so long. like since donkey years ago i have not been winning mahjong. so be it. and all the rest of the idiiot things like getting charged, assigned shit ass job in camp, blown up job for crocs that time, world most ex chalet, maybe so on and so forth.

what cant kill u makes u stronger. it applies for u and for me

time flies so fast. its been week since i orded and now ty and ts going to enlist soon. only thing is ty will go in first cos he is weaker, ptp. but good for him, at least he isnt feeling that bad bout it